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A Scare Became A Scar By: Cindy Schwend Tedesco (2015) My vertical scar was crimson on my skin, 75 staples were stapled in. The scar was dark then, it saved my life – it’s where my darling surgeon skillfully used her knife. I have no tattoos but I have my scar, it holds many stories like a tightly sealed jar. The scar has miraculously faded now, when I glance at it, I’m reminded how…it’s not a defect upon my skin, for it’s within those cracks where the light gets in. This scar is mine and my second chance, I am not a victim of circumstance. I’ve come to accept this scar on my belly where I’ve liberally applied the aloe vera jelly. My vertical scar was crimson on my skin, but the soul inside is determined to win. The scar was dark then; but then the healing came and renewed my strength like a refreshing rain. A scar from a scare when I lost the “e”, it wasn’t the only thing removed from me.
(Dear is not the word)cancer, I am OK but not the same. I have lost mother, grandmother, sister,and my breasts. You are senseless. You stole from us. I beat you. Go to hell and take every cigarette on earth with you- never again want to smell them or see anyone help you one bit. I want a world where survivors are seen fully as equal and cared about. I hope through this site that you are forced to give me the gift of community.
Dear Cancer, you cruel,bastard of a disease. I have been walking around carrying you 19 months non aware due to the negligence of a doctor at a hospital who decided it wasn't a "big" enough spot to tell me about.. now its a mass that has grown almost 2in in size, in my nodes and am being told I will probably lose my right lung. I have TWO beautiful daughters who need me. You are Un-Invited you ass! BRCA has done this to me, and I gave everything I could to it, my ovaries, my breasts and I'm only 35. So I will fight and I will win. Sincerely, Me *nsclc*
Dear cancer: I should hate you. I should despise you to my very core for what you have put me through, for what you have put my friends and my family through. But I don't. Although you have taken many friends from me, you have blessed me with them in the first place and for that I thank you. These friends made me stronger, made me better, made me happy and made me unbeatable. So thank you cancer, for allowing me to grow with these people. Bet you didn't see that one coming did you?
Dear Cancer: I'm not angry with you but our separation has reminded me what an impact you made on my soul. I grew complacent with life... forgetting about everyday adventures and taking life for granted. I was happy in my own little world. Then you came for a visit and everything changed... for the better! Did I cherish the loss of my beloved breasts? No, but you showed me how to love myself as I am and my confidence soared as never before! I'm covered in scars (11 if we want to be technical) yet I've never felt more beautiful. Did I love the chemicals coursing (still) through my body? No, but I learned I looked absolutely amazing with no hair! Who knew I have such a perfectly shaped head? Oh, and the loss of eyelashes were tempered with not shaving or waxing so we're good there. You could have warned me the steroids would make me fat though. That was weird. Did I love the constant vomiting? Nope, but though you stole every ounce of energy I had I still had kids to raise. I still worked. I still had a life. I found determination and used it to go camping, paint balling, and date. You've been gone for almost a year and though I'm not sorry I want to say thank you. Thank you for reminding how to be amazing. Thank you for reminding me how to be an example to my children. Thank you for reminding me even the littlest adventures count. Thank you for reminding me I'm a fighter. And most of all... thank you for reminding me to live. As always, Lisa
Damndest Cancer, You thought you could sneak into my life unnoticed. I fought you once before; I threw you out, and gave up what I needed to leave you without a resting place to spread your chaotic death disguised as life. You stole into my life and body invisibly, silently, uninvited. But you can't have it. My body and my spirit have no place to tolerate you. My body is not my enemy, it has not betrayed me. You are the enemy, cancer, and you try to fool the world. You come to steal health, happiness, hope, future, present, childhood, peace, confidence, strength. You come to spread your fear, despair, chaos, and destruction. It's time for you to return to the depths of hell you squirmed out of. You are a grotesque, self-indulgent, narcissistic, devil. I'll fight you again now. And again, I'm not alone. What you didn't count on is the determination,talent, and compassion of hosts of scientists, researchers, caretakers, doctors; the love, support, prayer, caring of family and friends that together will never let you rest in this world until you are destroyed. "I know who goes before me, I know who stands behind. The God of angel armies is always by my side."
Dear Cancer....you came to steal, destroy and kill but you didn't succeed....in fact, you made me stronger. I love more deeply now, live life more fully and am determined to WIN this battle. I am on guard...watching and getting myself so strong in every way that if you try to reenter, or grow in any way you will lose! My God is bigger than you and He's on MY side! I am not thankful for you but I am thankful for how I have grown as a result of your crazy entry into my life.
#DearCancer you permanently took away my right breast and lymph nodes which left me an ugly reminder of my battle with you (huge scars). You temporarily took my dignity, my hope, my life and my faith away. However, slowly but surely I am coming back. It's not easy because I lost who I was because of you. Redefining myself is hard but not impossible so I will come back! I promise, I will to kick your ass if YOU ever come back! Cancer, you will never take my dignity, hope, faith nor my life again!!!
Dear Cancer, you have taken away my right to bare my own children. You have scarred me for life. You have temporarily taken away my vanity. The one thing you can never take away from me is my happiness and my overall will to live. I plan to build my body back up so that I never have to meet you ever again. I control what goes in my body and I am going to do whatever it takes to keep you out of it. Fuck you cancer!!! I have you, you do not have me!!!!