Send Cancer a message, literally. Get your feelings off your chest and support from your community. Tell Cancer how you feel.
Cancer, if you were a person I would punch you in your damn face. You are a bully. I might be emotionally beat but I'm still here. I always look over my shoulder to see if you are coming back. You've visited me twice in 13 years. You haven't been around in 8 years so maybe you aren't coming back. Now for my brothers and sisters in the fight. I got their back. We will get you when least suspect it. One day in this world you will be a distant memory. People will one day not even remember your name.
Dear cancer, you came to me not once but twice within a 2 year span.You took so much from me (financially, lost relationships because of you, and took a piece of me I could never get back). I hated you so much, but after the battle - I found myself again. I learned I had so much strength that I never knew I had, and you opened my eyes with my relationship. Everyday I stand in the mirror and I see the scars you left behind... and I wear them proudly!
Dear Cancer, you came to me at just 19 years of age. Thank you for opening my eyes and showing me who I am and who I want to be. I am 23 years old now and in the midst of it all I am nearing the end of my degree. You may have won the battle but I won the war!
Dear Cancer.. I'm siting here, watching my dad fight for every breath, and slowly die because of you. It wasn't enough that you hit me 8 years ago, but you had to come back and now you will take my dad… well you know what cancer?? You can't take away the spirit of a wonderful, thoughtful generous man, you can't take away the wonderful years we all had together and you can't take away memories that I will hold close for the rest of my life… it is awful watching my dad go through this… I wouldn't wish this on anyone… My prayer is that he passes quickly, with no more suffering.. he's had enough.. Leave us alone cancer.. you've done enough.. don't come back.
Reading some of the recent messages proved, once again, how strong you men and women are. I always knew it, but until I was diagnosed with lung cancer almost six years ago, I had no idea how strong I was. I had my 12th chemo treatment in a row yesterday, making a total of over the years of who-keeps-track? That to me is giving cancer too much power, and it's just a shitty part of me. I'm no longer friends with people who don't know how to laugh and who make federal cases out of pebbles in their shoe. You better have a joke to tell me when we meet. I have to see smiles, hear laughter, and feel hugs. It's so necessary because that's what helps to keep me going. I'm a great-grandma and many of my close friends have died. Many of the friends I made at the chemo clinic died, too, some because they didn't know how to fight. Others because it was their time, I guess. That hurts more than losing buddies I've had for decades because I know what those "sisters" and "brothers" went through. I know how some of their caregivers gave everything they had to keep their husband or wife alive... and couldn't. Do I hate my cancer? Not really. It taught me so much. I don't take people for granted anymore. I've had to learn to slow down and not be such a control freak. I love my husband more each day and know how lucky I am to have him, even though the old coot is hard of hearing and denies it! But who else would put up with me? I'm no walk on the beach to live with. Putting myself first isn't easy after decades of taking care of others, but at my age I can do it with his help. People, cancer is not stupid. Cancer is smart. Our job is to outsmart it any way we can. To me that means every morning when I wake up, my job is to remind myself to go to war and tell myself I'm smarter than my lung tumors. I'm trying to kill them with love. I surround them with red crystals and squeeze them tighter and tighter until they gasp and disappear. This visualization worked for me through two remissions, short as they were before, so I think it will work this third time. I'll find out when I go in for a PET scan within the next two weeks. I've had so many, I'm surprised I don't light up the room. How do I feel? Optimistic. As usual.
Dear Stupid Cancer, today you took my childhood friend away from her 3 children and husband, and they grieve that she is gone too soon - at only 43 years old. Their pain is so great. Unfortunately, I was introduced to you, stupid cancer, in April of last year when you reared your ugly head inside the body of my 46 year old husband - how dare you! No warning....you snuck your way in and spread before we knew you were there. BUT, lest you forget that we have a Mighty, Mighty God on our side, who does not fear you and who strengthens us daily and is preparing us to KICK YOUR BUTT! You messed with the wrong girl - you took my friend, but you will NOT take my husband!
Dear Breast Cancer, I found you during a routine mammogram, and despite recent studies that indicate mammograms may not be necessary, I am glad I had that one. You were too small for me to feel, centered in my breast, spreading out of the milk ducts and into the surrounding tissue. We took you out, as soon as we could, and your genetic makeup meant that I needed aggressive chemotherapy, followed by radiation. You took my hair, you took my femininity - but I am getting those back. You took my sense of complacency and I replaced that with live-in-the-moment philosophy. You gave me fear and I turned it around and made it courage. Thanks to you, I will need to take medication for years, but also thanks to you, I have been much more focused on my general health and well-being. I am working with a trainer and a nutritionist to make sure you never, ever, come back. You have taken so much from me this year, one of your kind took my love while I was still in treatment. He battled long and hard and bravely - but you spread too fast and we couldn't stop you. I know he is looking down on me from Heaven, and that he is whole and new and healthy there. I know that he is with me in the dark times and that he is with me in the light. You have taken so much, damn you. But you won't win.
Dear Mantle Cell Lymphoma, I was carrying you around for a number of months before I accidentally stumbled across you. You were hiding in my bone marrow, blood, lymph nodes and spleen. You were sneaky. I had no symptoms, but when I discovered you, I chemo'd you out after 5 months and you went away for 14 months, then sneaked back in a lymph node again. I could've chemo'd you again with 2nd Line drugs, but you'd only be back again after a while. You're aggressive that way. I could also have a Stem Cell Transplant, but there are no stem cell transplant hospitals in Hawaii, so you forced me to move from the balmy tropics to North Dakota so I could attend the Mayo Clinic. You almost had me in a corner until I found a clinical trial for ibrutinib and it kicked your butt. Now I'm cancer free and you're out of here!
Dear Cancer, You know how I feel about you and I have so many things to say to you that are not fit for public viewing. We know each other well now, as this is our second battle. We both know that I will win this battle, and I will tell you right here and now....WE ARE NOT DOING THIS AGAIN. I am tired of your shenanigans running and trying to ruin my life. I am going to have a LONG and HEALTHY life when this battle is complete, which should be pretty soon. I will move on and do my best to forget about you. You have screwed up my head for way too long. You have disfigured my body. You have caused me such incredible physical pain. I am really pissed about ALL of that, but at least I am still here to tell the tale. You have taught me who really does and who really does not care about what happens to me. Most of all, you've just made me stronger inside and even more of a fighter than I EVER was before and believe me....I'm quite the fighter and always have been. I will never back down, I am never moving backwards--always forward. So there you have it, Cancer. We are just about done with our dance, and you are a shittier dancer than I am. :)
Dear Cancer, You came to kick my arse and instead you had a battle! so far the rounds have gone to my corner and thats the way it is going to stay! You have stolen part of my life, and put my family and friends through hell, but its gonna take worse than that to see the end of me. I may get down, and grotty, but all my angst is aimed at you CANCER! I am going to have my life back, it may take me a while, and the side effects make things a fight day to day and the pain is always there to remind me of you, BUT I DON'T CARE, CANCER YOU CAN KISS MY BUTT!!!!!!!!!!! Love and hugs along with strength to all of you out there fighting, we are ALL in your corner, and don't forget it!!!!!!! Love Amelia Kinsey xxxxxxx
Dear Cancer, I have been involved with patients fighting with you. You are very dreaded but the will power and strength of the patients helps them in fighting with you along with the treatment. You enter the body and try not to go out but we are there to kill you and help all to save from you, so beware.
Dear Cancer, I'd like to share some words that I would have never shared with your to anybody, because they are not kind. However, I'm tired of you. I'm tired of your shadow lingering over my heart and soul every day. You suck, I hate you. I'm tired of you and it's time for you to go. You were not invited, you've over stayed your welcome and quite honestly, nobody really likes you. Leave me and everybody else alone. P.S. I kicked your ass, and there's a long line of people behind waiting to do the same. Peace.
Dear Cancer, I dont live with u anyway but i dont hate u or like u. IT truly doesnt matter whether u come into a person's life or not for if they had lived their lives fully they will leave with u peacefully. It's sad that many people have to face u and suffer from it.
Dear Cancer. You will not beat me, let's get that straight from the start. You may be squatting inside me for now, but I've called in the bailiffs and you're going to be forcibly evicted soon enough.... I've taken the first steps to.make sure you're not THAT strong and after you've been cut out and thrown away, I'll be taking even more - just to.make sure you don't think about coming back...I've got far too much to live for. You may have picked a bad time to move in, but rest assured, the love of far too many people make me want to stay here for.a lot longer. And that love is far far stronger than you are...Take this as your final.warning. you will.NOT be missed
Dear Cancer, Thank you for the hidden blessings you've given me and for opening my eyes and giving me wisdom beyond my years. Thank you for making me realize that people can surprise you. Thank you for bringing me closer to my family and friends. Thank you for making me actually live in a more meaningful way. Thank you for making me realize it's not about the quantity of time we live, but rather the quality of it. Aymz in TX
Dear Cancer, I am probably the only person here that doesn't hate you. You may not have invaded me, I may have invited you. Actually you could have been a gift. I am a Trans man, I didn't really mind having female parts that I couldn't see but having surgery to remove them means I can take less testosterone which is easier on the body. If for some reason I could not get access to T, then my estrogen would still stay low. What a blessing for a Trans man to have cervical cancer, right? Only thing is... you came at the worst possible moment of my life. I just lost the most amazing woman I could ever meet. I am on the verge of being homeless and have been looking work a year now, running out of money, and have been living off a credit card. I am LGBT, a lonely life as it is, plus a little socially awkward, sensitive. Now I have the news that you are in my life, and it is suppose to be devastating news. I don't hate you, I hate the fact that this humanity, societal social security around me is completely or nearly absent upon your arrival. You remind me of how alone I really am, and maybe you have come to take me home to the universe, away from American Western Patriarchal Capitalism, so I no longer have to suffer. I just might want you to stay and consume me. Maybe you will spark a change. Either way, I don't hate you, and I am not angry at you. Of course I wouldn't want you to be anywhere you are not wanted, but I guess that's not how I feel. Maybe I invited the vampire into my house.
Oh I forgot to add, if this is your way to break me make me weak, then you got it all wrong. Neither am I weak or breakable! Infact I've come through stronger and I'd like to thank you for that, yes take the credit for that! Gods been kind but you haven't! I don't think you intend to be kind either.. Do you? But as they say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger! I hope you enjoy having your butt kicked!
Dear Cancer ... Look lets be honest, this just isn't working out and we're not meant to be.You took away the thing that meant the most to me. .but you most definitely will not my life!! It's been officially two years now and I think it's about time you moved on. Clearly I don't like you. Spare my family the horror!! I know there will be a day when you will be a bad memory that I never have to worry about again. Until then , while you're forcibly here , do something GOOD dude! Make my life better maybe then I won't hate you as much. Only maybe!
Dear Cancer, You are sneaky and evil. You and I will NEVER be friends... You packed your bags and moved into my life without my permission. You have not paid your dues and I want you gone for good!!! How dare you sneak up on me like that?!?!??! Who do you think you are?!?!? I HAD a life!!!! Maybe it wasn't the best or the most ideal, but it was my LIFE... I hate you for taking away my ability to do all the things I used to do like lifting something that weighs more than 5lbs, dancing, being able to drive, being able to cook my own meals... All I can say is Thank God I had hurt my back at work that day or I might have kept going on with my life and died at your gruesome hands never having been the wiser... I found you and now that I know you are here, I will be keeping a close eye on you cause you will NOT sneak up on my daughter or son the way you did me!!! I will NOT let you ruin their livelihood the way you did mine!!! They will live full lives and NEVER have to know first hand all the scary things I've physically gone through this last year... Next month it will have been a full year since I found out you were even here... You will leave my body and NEVER return!!!! The things you put me and my family through emotionally... You made my poor granny cry and she has been so worried about me when it's me who should be worrying about HER since she is 81yrs old... I HATE YOU for ALL the THINGS I can no longer do!!! My son and I loved to play disc golf and we loved to go swimming... Thanks to you we can no longer do that... My daughter used to love it when I picked her up and took her and her friends out to eat and to go shopping, and thanks to you and your sick evilness I can no longer do those things with her!!! And together we all 3 loved to load up the Jeep with blankets and pillows and go to a drive in movie theater... Since I can't drive my Jeep anymore, we can no longer do that either... some of the best times we had was watching those double features under the stars with fireflies in the fields nearby.... shame on you for taking that away from us!!! Shame on you for taking away everyone else's happiness.... You are pure evil!!!
Dear Cancer, I hate you and I want you to totally and completely vacate my body. I resent you making me unwillingly sacrifice a part of my body to you. I have only been dealing with you a short time, but you have already over-stayed your welcome and this is your eviction notice. You have NO recourse to my decision. Pack your belongings and get out immediately.
Dear Cancer, this is your official notice to vacate my body immediately. Any resistance will be met with searing doses of Oxilaplatin, Avastin, and 5FU. This is your 3rd warning of 12. If you chose not to comply, I will cut and burn you out of my body and my life. Govern yourself accordingly. Sincerely, ~K