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Dear Cancer, thank you. Thank you for opening my eyes. Thank you for making me the strong, confident person I am today. Thank you for teaching me that it is not actually you that is the issue but how you came to be inside my body and how western medicine attempts to treat you that is. Thank you for presenting what, and who, is important to me in life and for giving me that kick in the ass I needed to realise all of this as well as my own potential. I used to hate you, oh I hated you so bad, but I now see that you were never the problem. You were just a name given for the build up of many different issues in my life that had conveniently connected and coltivated into a tumor that took up residency in my brain. Now that these issues have all been addressed I do not see us crossing paths ever again, so at this point I will bid you farewell. You were never my best roommate, but you taught me the most. Thank you.
I have lived with you in my life for just over 14 years. In that time I have gone from being terrified of you taking me to saying, screw you cancer, I am alive and am going to continue to be for a long time. I have too many things to do to let you take me. I am fighting you with every breath I take!
Damn you, damn you, damn you. You were supposed to be GONE! I had locked that door, you were GONE. Like a bad ex, now you're phoning me with seizures and saying, "Hi, fuck you, I'm back." I am trying so hard to stand strong and say "You are SO out of here" but I'm scared. I'm scared out of my mind. I'm so scared. I need you to just ... not be here, please. Let the headaches and seizures be ... I don't know, some different type of nightmare.
Dear cancer, You are said to make a person stronger but I think the opposite. Not only did you make me believe I was done after my chemo in December 2014, but you decided to relapse two weeks later when I thought I was going to get my life back on track. I went back to work for one day teaching at my preschool to find out you came back the day after. You not only took away my career of teaching children for a few years now because of my stem cell transplant, but you have lowered my self confidence, made my emotions a messy roller coaster, and weakened my immune system. It took me a while to get on track and start living post treatment. I was supposed to graduate, be a teacher, and move out on my own in a year, but now it has been postponed. How am I supposed to find a guy with scars, telling him I had cancer, and that I cannot have children?!! Goodbye forever cancer...I never want to see you again!!!
I had to biopsies this week. Luckily they were both benign but I was angry and anxious waiting for the results. I kept thinking about the 16 months I have been on chemo and if it was back...well you start wondering if it was all worth it. On top of that tomorrow is my second wig "viewing" and I'm nauseous just thinking about it. I'm not sure if the illusion of hair will make me feel better or worse. Trying them on the first time definitely made me feel worse. I'm at the point where some days I just want to say enough is enough. It's exhausting and there isn't an end in sight. Luckily for me it's chronic not terminal but the fight to treat it is still draining.
Dear Cancer, you have messed with my body, my strength, my fears and my life. I'm a survivor of a rare not great prognosis cancer. Thankfully in remission, living my "new normal" and dealing with after effects of treatment. I'm alive and will keep on fighting!
Dear Cancer, If there is one thing I have learned, it is that ‘YOU are not the enemy.’ Cancer kills. That statement alone would lead anyone to believe that you are the devil in disguise or the terrorist that needs to be taken down. However we choose to view it, you are an invader and one thing is for certain – no one wants to be on the opposing side of you. I am not one of those people that will say how grateful I am that you came into my life because I have a whole new positive perspective now that you have given me a brush with death. No, not me. I am not grateful, I am angry. I am grateful for my anger. The anger has given me the strength to fight you. Since you walked into my life one year ago, I have driven to over 70 doctors appointments, have had 3 surgeries, have been poked dozens of times by numerous different medical professionals, have been physically and emotionally unwell, have been unable to attend my children’s social functions, have lost my breasts and my hair, and I have become an incredibly insecure person whom I do not recognize. One year ago, a nurse told me that my positive attitude would get me through this. I cynically thought to myself – bullshit! It’s not my mind that has the problem, it’s my body. The surgery, the chemo, the radiation, and the drugs will get me through this! Well, they certainly helped but the truth is that she was right. One year later, after graduating from all the treatments, I am still angry at you for this terrorist invasion, but I know my worst enemy is my own mind and that if I allow you to take my sanity, you will have won. I am here to say GAME OVER. You lost, I won. With a sarcastic wink, I say ‘Good luck to you in the future’, Shelly Straub, Survivor
Dear Cancer, It’s over, we’re through! I wish I could say the past 10 months had meaning and caring, but it didn’t! You are the worst thing that has ever happened to me and I am erasing you from my memory. We are history; you are no longer allowed to show your ugliness to me or anyone I know. You challenged me, you put poison into m my body, and you had people calling me Sir! You had the nerve to enter my body and now I am shoving you out. The only thing you have taken from me is time; I came out the other side battered but I WON! You have no hold over me, my body, or my mind. You’re an asshole, and I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN! Good bye shithead, I am emancipating myself from you forever!!!!
You've been a shadow, always keeping me on my toes. You were close to consuming me but I escaped from your grasp and have no intentions of ever letting you come close to me ever again. You've taught me a lesson in having a better perspective of my life, of never taking it for granted and to cherish every single day. I'm learning to accept, to move forward, which means keeping you behind me. You might have been a part of my life once upon a time, but that time is over. I kicked you out seven years ago, soon going on eight, and I couldn't be happier.
Gotcha!!! In 2010 I was 65 years old and was diagnosed with stage 3 you in my throat. I thought" wait a minute! I survived 25 years in the U.S. Army, 3 combat tours in Vietnam as a Green Beret, 214 parachute jumps and you think you're going to kick my ass? What a joke. Now I can add surviving radiation therapy twice a day for seven weeks, chemo therapy once a week for seven weeks, eating through a feeding tube for six months, losing 102 lbs. in five months and going through 18 months of recovery. Now four and a half years later I'm free of you, healthy, working out 3 times a week and eating regular foods (yeah, I forgot that you took my taste buds for almost 2 years). But as I predicted, I'm tougher, I won and I work hard to stay that way. One of my missions in life is to be an inspiration to others who are fighting you and help them stay positive so they too can beat your butt. Anyone in the battle can feel free to contact me...we're all winners and will beat this thing.
I feel like Im a few feet from the finish line and just know if you get in my way, I will run you over and stomp on your face. Don't mess with me Cancer, Im not a girl you can hold down and control. Yes, you've interrupted my life, took my hair, my breasts, added many scars, caused pain, aches and sleepless nights but this is all temporary. I will regrow my hair, get better breasts, get back in shape, sleep through the night again and get back to my daily grove without interruption. You lose Cancer I WIN! Cancer 0 Anna 3
dear cancer you interrupted my life change it all around made me so sick I don't want to live anymore but you removed people out of my life who didn't need to be there you restore my faithyou change me to a completely different woman with different views on life but I have unshakable faith in Jesus and he always has my back and you did not win I'm better I'm stronger and I'm bigger than you I'm a hundred pounds lighter but I'm 200 pounds stronger so next time you chat about on me you better ask somebody God got my back and he's stronger than you so I like the demon you are I rebuke u and send you back to the pits of hell from which you came from No weapon formed against me shall prosper including you! Thank God I don't look like what I been through!