I am trying my best to do a better job at asking others for help during this stem cell transplant. I try not to put too much on my husband, family and friends. Then I wonder, how much is too much to ask for? When do you try to do things on your own? Do you worry about getting on other's nerves? I do. Truth be told, if I could do this entire process on my own I would not ask anyone for help at all. I try not to feel like a burden. I have read plenty of books, and seen my counselor enough times to remind me that people actually enjoy doing things for me. l wonder....especially with my husband. He seems like his life is so awful right now. He told me that his life already hard enough and he could careless what people think about his attitude. I don't know. That hurt. When he feels overwhelmed, it hurts. I'm asking God about the direction of my marriage. What I should do. Which way I should turn. Is this the right place to be? Would I be happier if he was not around? Am I just overreacting? Is divorce or separation an option? Jesus be my guiding light, and bless of block these thoughts.