I've come to realize that the hardest thing for me is accepting and freely admitting that I now have tired days and pain days. Prior to cancer/chemo, I never had these days and I rarely even got sick. When asked how I'm doing, I don't go into detail because I don't want to come off as complaining while thinking about the long list of side effects I do have. I keep smiling day to day-not pretending-but be continously thankful for only what I do have to deal with and blessed for life itself. It's really a small price in a big way. It's a new life, a new beginning. Life will never be the same again, but it's how one takes it. Acceptance with grace and humbleness.